Ava is 9 months old

Wow, Ava is 9 months old already. Time is flying by, i am so lucky to have such a good little baby, she is truly perfect and often think she is truly a miracle. Everytime we reach a milstone i wonder if she knows she is a twin and does she know that there is something missing in her life. I also dont know how this will affect her as she gets older. I find myself having a harder and harder time knowing Ella is not here, how much different my life would be with her here. Ella is in a better place and will always be with us forever. Geoff and I are looking for something to put in a yard as a memorial for Ella, since she is up in portland we want a piece of her closer to all of us. Ava and daddy did swim lessions yesterday and Ava went under water (like a big girl). She was swimming with Jack and Tatum and all the other babies. Her 1st time under water Ava's 1st time at the Carousel for Laruen's 5th Birthday. We went on the carousel once but i started to get sick so i couldnt take her anymore. Daddy didnt want to go on either (chicken). Ava 9 months old and Joseph 6 months old